For the love You have for us

I just felt like crying right now, the world can be so cruel....

Sometimes we make mistakes that hurt so much everyone else, and it cuts like an axe into our souls...

I am hurt my lover, I am hurt for I've hurt you, I have killed you in the inside, you look like a living dead...

Everything I had most dear, I betrayed!

All I wanted was a little bit more of your presence! A bit more of your hands touching my hair and my body...

- I feel pain, because I know it happens everyday, families are destroyed because of lack of understanding...

Why?

And why am I living an after history stuff?

What is it that I should learn? Or should I abstract myself from it? And cry, and be of no help?

Am I helping anyhow?

Oh Jesus! Please, I beg you! Give me wisdom to keep on, and while I keep on show me how to live, and make me a blessing! A blessing!

I have much resposibility, I have gathered something very big on my hands. I feel like I don't know for sure what to do, but I am quite sure that I want ot be a blessing and be blessed painlessly...

I long to be at peace, I long to bring joy to Your heart, and I think that so does she...

Help me Jesus, take away everything that confuses us.

Bless her and bless me.

For your everlasting love and mercy...

Amen.

Gabriel Marchezini

June 16th, 2009